Love At First Sight.

This post is sheerly an opinion of mine. Please don't take offence.

Recently, one of my friends seemed to have experienced the 'love at first sight' theory. not as in she herself but her the other half.

truly speaking, i've always thought people who claim their other half to be 'love at first sight' to be a little off. How can you POSSIBLY fall in love with a person when you just had met eyes with him/her? it is ridiculous. i have never been 'in love' if that is what you might call it and perhaps i am not exactly the right person who is supposed to be saying this but hasn't it ever occured to you how this 'love at first sight' theory is a little far-fetched? I am and always will be a firm believer of Love. it is a beautiful thing and one who is given the opportunity to experience it is truly very lucky. But that is where you stop. You cannot insist upon me that you fell in love with a person the minute you laid eyes on him/her. Love isn't something which comes just like that. Nor is it a fairy-tale. Love needs a lot of courage, a lot of work, a lot of trust, a lot of communication, a lot of understanding, a lot of realizations. And all of the above, to me CANNOT possibly occur by one sight. Never. That is bull.

NO, i am not implying those who claim 'love at first sight' have never ever lived the happily-ever-after fairytale. No. there hordes of people who claim this such theory somewhat successful in their lives, who have lived together for decades being each other's true love. These are the people who got real lucky and fall into the trap of 'love at first sight' and then claim that that their first sight was the 'lucky charm'. These are those who later i believe found a way to work through things, have the courage to put up with each other and finally make things work. Mark my words, Love is Never Easy (A.R Rahman ;) ). It never just comes through that whatsoever sparks which flew out of his/her eyes the first time your eyes locked. Perhaps yes it does happen sometimes. In movies only. Where the super Indian hero literally flies over a car (Limousine preferably) and beats up 50 guys at one go to save the heroin and then finally they lock eyes and voila! The 'love at first sight' theory evolves yet further. (Surya is an exception though (: )

Please people wake up. Please stop using such a theory for it is a theory yet to be proven. Nonsensical delights as such are sweet for the ears but just plain ridiculous if you really even listen to yourself saying it aloud

Love really DOES play eye-games. But definitely not at First Sight.

FEAR

i realized just now i am person with a lot of fear.

fear for the most ludicrous of things.

but alas, what can i say. i am at least being honest.

i fear being alone.

i fear being caught.

i fear taking risks.

i fear taking another path.

i fear experiencing new things.

i fear of not being loved.

i fear being judged.

i fear thinking the 'unthinkables'.

i fear being not loved.

i fear being myself.

i fear to not judge.

i fear to let loose.

i fear to break that box.

i fear my dad.

i fear admitting.

i fear frustration.

i fear anger.

i fear fear itself.

and all this comes down to one thing. just one.

I FEAR ME.

Incest i am

a dream. a horrible one. when i was driving back from kl.

okay, not exactly driving. just at the back seat; sleeping.

i dream that i was an incest. OH GOD. it was horrible. seriously. and it was multiple times.

MULTIPLE TIMES.

oh god.

i actually woke up swearing. silently of course; for there was PI* in front. (PI : Parental Interference. introduced to me by selina wilson for phone purposes)

so yes. horrible one. let's not go into the details of who it was.

(hint : well, my cousins are pretty awesomely hot)

ANYWAY.

why is everyone going off to college so freaking soon???

and if they aren't going some are actually fretting so much as to where they would end up and where and what website to go to to get that scholarship?

these people don't even need to find for scholarships seriously speaking.

they will just have to WAIT and they would find a scholarship literally knocking on their door.

okay maybe not literally.

but still.

well, as far as i'm concerned my dreams of psychology are pretty near the two words you often hear in fairytales : THE END.

what with a conservative dad and a good teammate called mom.pffft.

i'm pretty much waiting for God to fall from heaven and give me a solution. I believe there will be. it is just a matter of time.

I HAVE FAITH.

i realized something that i have to change in myself just now and it was overwhelming. i'm currently in happy mode.

lucky parents. (one of these days i know i'm going to get it from them seeing that i'm having mood swings whenever i feel like it. well, i can't help it can i now?)

:)

Cat or Lioness?

cat or lioness?

one has completely lost the bits and pieces of self-esteem that one had.
completely.
one is so inferior as to what might come of her. 'lost in thoughts', so it's said to be.
But what is on that mind? What?
only i know.
only you know what heights can your mind go to.

only you.

and when it does, it somewhat tears a wound open. a wound that perhaps that was never meant to heal.

beauty comes from within.

it is time one realized that.

physical judgement is the worst judgement of mankind.

one has no more to give.

for He often let those who stand back to cruise through but those who claw their fingers to get to His pen; fall and bleed before getting there.

i agree whole-heartedly.

for i who is writing.

cat or lioness?

CAT.

for now.

Yes. The Typical Welcome Note.

You just adore me, don't you?

Flattering really.

So yeah.

The new-ness of the blog is for YOU.

For you're dying to get more of me.

Awww...thank you.

*bows*
*curtain closes*

*peeks through the curtain*

yes, i sound a bit weird.
And no i'm not going to put up pictures to make it all more interesting.
As it already is.
Gawdy-ness is so not me.